Peace that Passes Understanding

The peace I feel today, truly passes understanding.

This has been a challenging week. Last Thursday night, I had a dream that there was an international crisis threatening to stop international transportation. In the dream, my biggest concern was whether we would be able to bring our son home before it happened. Then I worried whether I would get back to my other children. In the dream, we decided to bring them so that at least if we got stuck in China, we would be stuck together. In the end, the crisis continued to get worse and I woke in a panic thinking we would never bring our son home. I was very relieved to realize it was only a silly and ridiculous dream. It wasn't until a day later that I first heard someone talk about the swine flu (my dream didn't involve a flu...)

As this week has unfolded, I found myself being rather distraught with reports of restrictions on air travel. Rumors have abounded in the adoption community about how China will respond. Families that were told last week that their travel approval is coming this week were told earlier this week that it would be issued next week because someone that needed to sign was out of the office. Today, the China Center for Adoption Affairs issued a statement asking adoption providers to counsel their clients to postpone travel. The statement refers to those that received their travel approval between March 1 and April 30 and grants them an extension in the time they can travel up to 5 months. No mention of travel approvals after April 30. We are expecting our TA sometime in May. The current rumor is that TAs will be suspended temporarily. The expectation is that a decision will be made and communicated next week. Tomorrow is a holiday in China.

In this world, there are many reasons for fear and doubt. Throughout this process, I have been reminded that it is really out of my control. At each step along the way, we have done everything in our power to move the process along, only to hit roadblocks, complications and slow downs. Last Friday morning, when our immigration officer called with our approval, we thought we were home free and on our way! However, this journey looks like it will be a battle to the very end. We are thankful to have many praying friends that have prayed for Joshua and for us for a very long time. We would appreciate your continued prayers not just for us, but for the many families that are currently waiting to bring their children home. A family I know is waiting for a little girl just older than Joshua. They are one of the families that had expected their TA last week. They just received a message through an interpreter that their daughter asked them "to come fetch her".

My burden is to pray all of these little ones home. It feels like an all out battle to get them here. Many of us currently waiting have endured one set back after another as a result of new immigration procedures only to have this new global obstacle now. Yesterday, I kept thinking of the passage in Daniel where the angel assures him his prayers were heard, but delayed due to the battle at hand. (Daniel 10:12-13). Let us not grow weary and faint, may God strengthen us for the battle, let us pray without ceasing until each of them is home.

On a lighter note -- here are some pictures of our little guy working away at camp last summer...

Care Packages and Prayer Request

We were very excited to finally receive our acceptance letter from China because it meant we could send care packages. Here is a picture of the care package that was immediately sent to him from Lady Bugs N Love. In addition to the items pictured, it included letters to the orphanage director and to him from us that had been translated into Chinese. They have also ordered a cake and called the orphanage with a list of questions from us. We are hoping to hear back about these things soon. They did confirm the package was received last week.

We are also sending a care package from here at home that we packed with things ourselves. It includes a photo book with pictures of our family, home, pets, Oregon scenery, things we like to do, pictures of him and messages to him. The captions and messages were translated into Chinese by an exchange student.

Meanwhile, we would appreciate all prayer warriors interceding on behalf of our travel approval. That is the final big item needed before we can travel to China. The group just ahead of us has been experiencing delays in this step. We are also praying that fears of swine flu will not cause unnecessary delays.

This morning, when I woke up, I kept thinking of Isaiah 26:3. I emailed our family coordinator from our agency and asked for prayer and shared that verse with her. She replied that they had already been reading that chapter in their staff meeting and had previously selected Isaiah 26:23-24 as the verse of the week. I guess I need to keep that one in front of me -- here it is --

Isaiah 26:3 -"You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You."
24 - "Trust in the LORD forever, for in Yah, the LORD, is everlasting strength."

Another step complete!

Today our immigration officer called to inform us that she was approving our i800 form...not to be confused with the i800A that we waited to receive from August to December of last year. The i800 form could not be submitted until last week when we received our acceptance letter from China specific to Joshua. There are four more steps between us and making airline reservations for China! The next step is for the National Visa Center to receive our file and cable it to the US Consulate in China. After that, the consulate will issue what is being called an "article 5" report with our second "RA" (or LOA) -- the acceptance letter and call the courier for our agency to pick it up and send it to the China Center for Adoption Affairs (CCAA) in Beijing. The third step is for CCAA to issue our Travel Approval. The fourth step is for our agency to confirm our appointment with the US Consulate to obtain Joshua's visa and attend a swearing in ceremony for his US Citizenship. It seems to take about a month to complete these four steps. We're hoping we will be able to travel to China by mid-June.

These photos were sent to us last December when we received our Preliminary Approval.

A Lovely Mischievious Child

Back on December 1, when we received our preliminary approval, our agency's China liaison called the orphanage for an update. This was their report: "A lovely boy, Li Meng. He is a little mischievous child, has many ideas to do something. He is good with painting, but doesn't like study very much, and always has a very good appetite for all kinds of food."
It should be interesting when he and Mark put their heads and ideas to do something together! This picture was taken at the summer camp he attended last summer.

Plotting their course

We received the original of our acceptance letter today. There was great excitement as the fed-ex truck came up our driveway - Rachel took his picture. We signed this original and sent it back by fed-ex to our agency. This one will go to our agency and then to Beijing. The copy we signed yesterday was received in the Chicago USCIS office this morning and will make its way to their office in Missouri and eventually to the consulate in Guangzhou. Our agency sent another copy to Guangzhou with another form yesterday. Eventually, all three will meet up again, we'll get travel approval and be off to China. Pete, always the project manager, has charted all of this on the white board in his office.

The picture above was taken by the orphanage at the end of November when we received our preliminary approval. I looked up these symbols. They mean autumn and spring. He is pointing to Spring. I wondered if they told him that is when to expect us to come. Our first care package, letter and photos is supposed to be delivered to him on Monday or Tuesday!

Hooray Hooray RA Today!

Today we received that piece of paper we have been waiting to receive since December 23rd when our dossier was sent to China for review. Our agency calls it an RA (Referral Acceptance), most people call it an LOA (Letter of Acceptance). The document is actually translated to say "Letter of Seeking Confirmation from Adopter". It basically confirms that after reviewing our stack of official, notarized, certified and authenticated documents they have approved us to adopt a child and have matched us with Li Meng. The document asks us to check a box to confirm we accept him. We sign it and send it back to China to await travel approval. Now, that used to be all we needed to do and it would come back in 2-5 weeks. Now, however, we have to jump through more hoops with US Immigration first. So today, we sent by fed-ex our immigration forms, we had previously sent other consulate forms to our agency. Once immigration approves our forms are in order and cables their approval to the consulate in Guangzhou, it will be matched up with the form sent from our agency and another form will be sent to the China Center of Adoption Affairs in Beijing who will THEN process our travel approval. Our agency hopes we will travel by mid-June. Pete hopes we will travel in early June. I've learned to be a bit cautious about my expectations.
My greatest joy today is that this little piece of paper also means we can now send Li Meng letters, photos and gifts. The first care package with pictures and letters was ordered today from a service in China. I am also sending a package and photo book from here at home. We plan to send more between now and when we travel. Please pray that God will prepare his heart to receive our letters and gifts. As I'm typing this, my son is playing a Third Day CD and the song "Love Heals Your Heart" is playing (see earlier post...)
This piece of paper also allows us to post pictures! We have over 30 photos now and hope to get more-- so perhaps I'll post a picture a day for a while! Thank you all for your prayers and encouragement!
The pictures below are of the long awaited piece of paper and the growing binder of documents we've collected (about 4 inches thick now!)

This is What it's All About

Today ended up being a very special Easter Celebration for our family. It was not a typical Easter for us. We didn't end up having a big meal planned, any family over or Easter baskets. We had a quiet day with just our family.
This evening, as I was cleaning floors and Pete was setting up a computer, Anna was bouncing back and forth between us talking about all sorts of things, but most of them centering around Easter and spiritual things.
It all started after she and Mark got into a bit of trouble over something. She bounced over to Pete and said, "Mom loves me even when I do sins." Pete assured her that he also loved her no matter what bad thing she did and that there wasn't anything she could do that would make him stop loving her. They then went on to talk about how God also loves her no matter what she does.
She then bounced over to me and started talking about dying, graves, heaven, etc and asked if her heart would still beat in Heaven. I sent her back to daddy and they talked about that a bit.
She bounced around a bit more and then asked, "Why did Jesus have to die?" Now we have talked about this many times. Many times she has talked about having Jesus in her heart and why we sin. She prays every day about many things. However, tonight, she seemed to be genuinely thinking about all of these things. Pete sat down with her and I joined them as I heard him answering her questions. At one point, I was able to give her a recent illustration that God really used to help her understand redemption. A few days ago in the car, she had been talking and asking about what could happen if she didn't wear her seat belt. She wanted to know if she would go to jail or have to pay lots of money. We had concluded that if she got a ticket, I would have to pay the fine for her since she had no money and that since I could pay, no one would go to jail. Pete was able to use this to help her understand the hows and whys of Jesus dying to pay for our sins. She listened so intently.
When she had all of her questions answered and we had talked again about Jesus being her boss and living in her heart we told her she could pray to live in her heart some day when she was ready. She said, "I want to do that now!" We talked some more and then she went and found all her sisters and brothers and had them gather around so she could pray.
It was a special time. When we were done, she called her Grandma and Papa and told them all about her prayer and how Jesus was paying her ticket for her sins so she could go to heaven after she was in the grave...
I know some people may doubt whether an almost five year old can really understand deep spiritual truths, but I believe with the prompting of the Holy Spirit, children can have a very genuine faith. I have now seen five of my children, around this same age, wrestle with their own sinfulness, ask deep questions about God, Jesus and redemption and on their own, seek to understand these things, profess their faith and pray on their own. I have seen genuine changes in their little hearts.
There is much growth and maturity that needs to happen in their walk with the Lord. That is true for me too! In the past couple of years, we have watched our teenage daughters process spiritual truths and examine their faith and relationship with the Lord through the eyes of greater maturity and understanding. That has also been a blessing and privilege as we have witnessed them surrender again to their Savior.
We are rejoicing in our home tonight and believe there is rejoicing in Heaven too. As we anxiously wait for news of our paperwork moving in China, we are reminded that THIS is what it is all about. Thank you Jesus!
Anna has recently memorized Psalm 23, if I can, I will add video. In the meantime, here is a cute picture of Anna at her desk and laptop "doing important papers so they will process our adoption paperworks to get Joshua home sooner..." (Maybe she will have greater success than me!)

One Year

Today, it has been one year since we found an adoption agency listing for a little boy called "Cole". That was the agency's assigned name for the little boy we had long prayed for and watched for. It was such a miracle to have found that listing. We never dreamed that a year later we would still be waiting to hear back from China. This process has taken far longer than we expected, but we are thankful to be here and thankful for all that God has done over the past year to prepare us to add this little boy to our family. So we wait and we pray and look forward to all that God has planned for the coming year! Please join us as we pray we will get our acceptance letter soon and that the process for travel approval, actual travel and homecoming will be smooth.

Resting

Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him…(Psalm 37)

Resting is something that is hard for me to do. My life is busy and full and there is always so much to do. I fill every second and work off of lists. This weekend was full with family here from out of town and many things planned. One evening, I found myself waiting for people to arrive for dinner with the timing a bit uncertain. I had done everything I could to prepare to start dinner, but had some extra time. I was thinking through my options of things I could do for the next few minutes while I waited to hear people were on their way, but I was feeling a bit under the weather and decided maybe it would be alright to sit down and put my feet up for a minute. It was a bit hard for me to do and didn’t feel very productive, but I realized I had done everything I needed to do and it was alright to rest. As I sat down in the cushy chair and closed my eyes for a rare bit of relaxation, the thought occurred to me that I have done everything I can to move our adoption paperwork. There is nothing else I can do. I’ve done all of the preparing I can do for the next step. It is alright to rest. Somehow, I felt that if I stopped and just rested, rather than trying to make someone move or do something else, I was giving up on the process. I realized that perhaps I just need to use this time to rest.

One of the events of the weekend was The Race for the Roses. My husband, sister, her husband, a couple friends and I were signed up for this event. We had worked hard over the past several months to prepare. I had worked my way up to a good pace. However, as race day approached, several things were working against me, including getting sick. On the morning of the race, rather than making a pace, my new goal became to finish the race without getting pneumonia. That meant I needed to make myself go at a slower pace where I could run without being winded. Much to my surprise, it ended up being a much more pleasant run than I have had in the past. When I wasn’t pushing myself for my fastest pace or trying to keep pace with someone else, I was actually able to enjoy the run. There were things to see along the way and I wasn’t in pain. I realized with this adoption, I have been striving and striving to keep up a good pace. Trying to meet artificial goals for when I think things should be done or trying to keep pace with other people has caused great frustration along the way when I should be enjoying the miracle that is unfolding along the way. During the race last weekend, I knew I had a sprint in me when I needed it. When I got caught in a pack of people or there were times when I felt it was time for a short sprint, I had it in me to sprint for a few minutes. When I have an opportunity to move paperwork along in this process, I’m prepared to sprint again. I also knew that I had done everything I needed to do to be able to finish my race. Even though I was running slowly, I knew I didn’t need to worry about finishing the race. I need to remember that with this adoption too. God has brought us this far and showed us what we need to do. I don’t need to worry about whether we will bring him home.

“Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him and He shall bring it to pass. (Psalm 37)